how much longer can I hold out?
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
♥ 08:58
Yes, I do know that there is a heavenly Father that loves me, but what about my earthly father? Isn't he the one that I should learn to love and respect? But how am I suppose to go about doing it when I hardly feel loved? It's been 2 days and we haven't spoken a word to each other. Why should I be the one apologising when he is the one that caused all these to happen? I can't look my sister in the eye because I am intensely jealous of the relationship that she shares with my father. Giving me material items does not subsitute the love I don't seem to be receiving. What do all of you want from me? There is a limit that I can take. Ever since young, how many times I've longed to get out of this situation but I seem to get stuck in this vicious cycle. What is the use of having a complete family if one child doesn't feel loved? Does it make it any different from coming from a broken home? Live in my shoes for one day and you'll understand what I mean. There is a limit I can take and I'm reaching that point.
