Voice of Truth
Casting Crowns


Oh,what I would do
To have the kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown
Where Jesus is,
And he's holding out his hand

But the waves are calling out my name
and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
time and time again
"Boy, you'll never win,
you'll never win."

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
the voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the voice of truth says "this is for my glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

Oh, what I would do
to have the kind of strength it takes
To stand before a giant
with just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound
of a thousand warriors
shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out
my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
time and time again
"Boy you'll never win,
you'll never win."

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
the voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the voice of truth says "this is for my glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

but the stone was just the right size
to put the giant on the ground
and the waves they don't seem so high
from on top of them looking down
i will soar with the wings of eagles
when i stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
singing over me

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says do not be afraid
And the voice of truth says this is for my glory
Out of all the voices calling out to me (calling out to me)
I will choose to listen and believe (I will choose to listen and believe)
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

I will listen and believe
I will listen and believe the voice of truth
I will listen and believe
'Causes Jesus you are the voice of truth
And I will listen to you.. oh you........

It's been a rough night as I struggled with the stress of having to move. The pressure keeps mounting as the days pass because everyone is eager for me to move out of my comfort zone and jump into things at the new place. All of a sudden, it seems like all eyes are on me again.

I know that there are bigger problems out there and what I am facing is probably the least than what other people are facing. Yet, this mounting pressure is driving me away, driving me away from coming home and having this conversation over and over and over again.

Why is it that people just can't give me the space and the time i really require? JUST GIVE ME A BREAK!

Finally I understand how my friends feel whenever I have no time for them. The feeling actually sux so bad that all I could do was just cry at my desk silently. I just long for the time that I can be like a normal teenager without all the added responsibilities. There are times that I just wish I can enjoy my weekends just like everyone else and not feel so busy on both Saturdays and Sundays. It's really tiring.

It has come to a point where I feel that Friday nights have become the only weekend that I can truly enjoy of course that would change when SIP ends. Yet how true can it be that I only have one day of my weekend to try to meet up with people and chill?

Honestly, I've grown weary. I'm sick and tired of having to deal with this from time to time. I know that there are people who are worst off than me but you know when you're just feeling so shitty, nothing matters anymore.

I'm sorry to all of you who have to go through the pain of me rejecting you all the time because I simply don't have time for you. I will try my best to make things better.

I'm never sure of what I can make out of what is happening in my life at this present moment. It's ironic that I was once sure of what I could say about how I was feeling and how everything that is happening around me was affecting me but now, everything seems to be a blur.

As time passes and I wonder more about stuff, I keep asking myself over and over again what do I exactly want in life. Planning the next step in life is not easy because I am really filled with uncertainty. Much as I want to go to university and do social science, it may not be in God's plan for me. Honestly, I very much would want to say that into God's hands I commit everything to Him, choosing to submit to every thing that He has planned for me. It's difficult because it's in our human nature to wants what the world wants as well.

That aside, the peer pressure around me is mounting. I don't know how to pen it down in words but yes, I do feel a certain amount of pressure with regards to some issues. Issues which should not be important at this point in time.

Pressure about me moving on to another place is also mounting. There are things that are holding me back and if it weren't for the issues that are pressing me to move, I wouldn't want to. It's quite depressing to actually think about it now because I don't know but I feel like I will be giving up a lot when I move and leaving my comfort zone is something that requires a big step of faith.

This has been the one thing that really bogs me. If anything, I just wish life wasn't this hard.

The last weekend had been one that was filled with excitement, much thought and reflection. It's hard being a leader, a servant leader. It's even harder being a friend. A friend that constantly cares, who is constantly there to lend the ear, the shoulder to lean on. It is even harder when you know that it is in our calling to create an environment that is loving and warm just like a big family.

Mistakes are constantly being made as we try to make things for the better. Even between the people that you would expect to be very close have our friction and well, sometimes even being distant from each other. Inevitably, there are also times when we cannot share things with one another because we do not feel that bond or we are simply not comfortable sharing. Yet, these are the times that we hurt the people around us the most because we seem like we are leaving them out of the loop.

I am guilty of that too. It's hard to tell everyone everything. There are times where I just feel like bottling everything up and not share for the fact that I don't want people to feel less important because I don't tell them what is happening at this point in time. To those whom I have hurt with my actions, I sincerely apologize and seek for your forgiveness.

Let us try to be mindful of the people around us and how the feel. Let us break all barriers and share our feelings with each other that are close to our hearts openly. Ultimately, we should learn not to judge for we are answerable to God and not man.