It is just unfortunate that the superficiality of the world has crept into the walls of the church. What I thought I would only experience in the harsh reality of the media industry and the world, I now feel it with the people that mean a lot to me.

Friendships that I thought would withstand the passage of time, somehow because of the decisions that has been made, things are now so superficial. Words that have been exchanged seem to have been forgotten and promises that have been made like glass have been broken.

I am comforted to know that I am not alone in feeling this way. Yet, nothing more can be said to describe the feelings I have swirling around in my head and heart. I honestly don't want to lead a double life or being superficial. It's not a nice feeling doing so.

If you want to find out things for YOUR friend, please do not ask me anymore. Please stop treating me like a three-year old kid. I have eyes to see and ears to hear. The way things are going is just going to drive me even further away from all of you. So, if you do not appreciate the years of friendship that we have, the things that I have helped you with, then by all means.

Anyway as I said, I'm gonna leave. Gonna go once things are settled. I don't belong in this community anymore. If you think I'm throwing a sissy fit, then too bad. Because honestly, this friendship we all share have just dwindled down to no where. Everything seems superficial.

One word to describe the week = SHIT. The deadlines are driving me insane. Everything is driving me insane. All I want is a GOOD break. I want to run away and not have anything bothering me anymore.

I am super disgusted that as a friend you choose not to tell me anything. It's okay because I want to respect your privacy and the right you have not to tell me anything. Yet, I am disgusted because you choose to behave in this way that I cannot understand. You hear but don't listen. In fact, I think that is the case of most people. You hear but not listen.

Life makes a sport of all of us one time or another. Things never go the way we want them to and somehow, when things don't go our way, it happens at the worst possible time. When you think that by making some decisions to move on from where you are , to start piecing pieces back together, you end up having more pieces fall apart, more questions unanswered.

Life sux.