I had Enough!
Sunday, July 10, 2005
♥ 23:43
I want to go for the committee retreat! I want to go for my class chalet!!!! But of course I can't go because I'm needed at home!!! Yes I do love my mum and want to take care of her but really I cannot take it anymore. Why do I have to be the one that is making all the sacrificies while my sister can still enjoy life? So what if I am the eldest daughter??? I still have to do juggle ministry work together with school work and now housework. I've only got 2 hands...how much more do you want me to do? I'm STRESSED! No reasons would be taken in if I ask for an extension of my datelines in school....so what the hell am i suppose to do? My mouth is breaking out in ulcers and my lips are cracking...a clear sign of stress and a bad sign because it means i can't play during band pracs...ARGHS! Sometimes I just wish time would stand still so that I can do all my stuff and I don't have to race against time. Time passes so quickly that it's scary!24 hours doesn't seem enough for me...now i got even more bad news! I can't enter my school e-mail so I don't even know if my lecturer has replied me and sent me the necessary documents for me to continue doing my assignment...haix...i suddenly regret my decision about going to poly much less choosing to do something like mass communications. It's very draining...not only you have to attend lectures and tutorials, i must always be kept on my toes about the knowledge of the module plus all the numerous individual assignmets and group projects..it's enough to take up so much of my time! I feel my energy draining away from me...if only time can stop now!*I miss you....are u even thinking of me?*