New Beginning
Friday, July 08, 2005
♥ 11:43
I've got a new blog! This would symbolise a new meaning in my life. I hope with this blog, I would be able to share with you the many new memories that I would gather when I start something new in my life.But I'm getting really frustrated at the moment because there seems to be something wrong with my blog at the moment.. can't seem to get my template nicely done up the way i want it to be...sighx....11.36AmYAy!!!! I finally figured out this blogging thing...hahaha...i feel like such a computer idiot but it's okae...i'm starting to get the hang of it...no more one single blogskin to last me forever! haha...diary-x was never so user-friendly when it came to changing my blogskins in the first place...i didn't have the brains to crack the difficult stuff that i had to do anyway..haha...i'm very happy for you shirin...finally what you have been waiting for has arrived! mustn't forget me arhx...now i'm beginning to wonder when it will be my turn...i'm still considering hard enough if i should take the risk and tell that special someone how i feel about him...it has been so long already...just as i was telling shirin last night...the feelings have come and gone for the last 3 years though it took a rather long break when i was with yizhong...but things has since changed... i dun want to deny the feelings i have already...it's been long enough and in the first place, i want to live my life like how shirin said that she's living hers...live my life as though it is my last day on earth...i want to seize every opportunity that is placed in front of me. But i would need the courage to do so....I can only pray that something will spark in me that will cause me to take every chance. Yes I tend to agree with Yien that I should treasure the friendship that me and that special one shares. It's one that seems to be unbreakable but how long can i deny me feelings for him for...am i going to deny for another 3 years? what if it is too late by then? what if he likes someone else??? i cannot forsee myself in the situation trying to be happy for him when i know that my heart aches tremendously because i missed the chance. God what am I suppose to do?