Frustrated!
Monday, August 29, 2005
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Haven't blogged for a couple of days due to the busy schedule I had over the weekend. School's finally out...though not officially since the exams are starting next week. I haven't really started studying yet and since it is my first examination since I entered poly, I really want to do well!I hope I can do well for my papers though because I am sure that my coursework grades are just mediocre. Sighs..
Was at the committee retreat over the weekend, planning for the theme for Youtzone next year. We came up with the theme "Strangers of the World, Lovers of the Living God". Seems quite powerful and challenging. Hopefully the youths would be challenged to live differently as the world lives and really stand up to proclaim that the are Lovers of the Living God. Many things happened during the retreat that caused much frustration and anger. Policies that have ran the discipleship programme while that ran alongside YZ were to be changed and it was not because of the things we talked about but because the Chairman felt that another committee was not doing anything and therefore should take over the secondary one students when the enter the youth group so as to be able to assess them. But is there really such a need to do so especially since the policy has seen results? What more when you are wrongly accused of being old fashioned and not being able to accept changes? I was mad! I have never felt more insulted by my chairman. After all there were many pressing issues that followed after what he wanted to change in D comm. I mean why make life more miserable when it is already tough trying to cope with it?
Nobody said that serving God was easy but it makes things even harder when you are working with a group of stubborn people. No one is born in such a way that they will always give way when placed in a situation where a group of people would have to make decisions. People will compromise after much argument but sometimes is that necessary? It seems like people are passing judgements before they see the true picture and furthermore, think that they are always in the right and don't want to hear from people who are in the picture and can give them a clearer picture. Why?!
Dear God, please guide me as I continue to seek Your will for this comm that D comm will be a comm that runs in accordance to Your will and not mine. That DGLs would come to You and seek your will for their DG, that the comm would continue to be a support pillar behind, praying and guiding them. Pray that You will grant us the wisdom when we are looking for the new materials and as we continue to review the plans that have already been put in place. Give me a burden for this comm, that when I feel tired or weary, I know that this is Your will for me, to mould and hone me to be a better servant for you. Amen
