Heaven's will?
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
♥ 09:35
I woke up feeling terrible. The serial programme that I have been watching had the characters saying things that I least wanted to hear this morning. I shed the tears that I have been wanting to shed since hearing the words last night. Watching the show, seeing how the female lead was hurt knowing the truth about the guy she loves, i couldn't help but just cry along with her.
I don't want our friendship to be ruined because of how I am feeling now. I hate to know that I am the the last to know what was happening in your life but I guess what I really didn't want to know was that you like another girl. The emotional hurt and turmoil that I am going through now, no one can fanthom. Maybe only those who have gone through it before.
Sometimes I wonder why God doesn't allow me to move on in life. It was not easy to get myself back on my own two feet and leading a life that centers around serving Him and doing my part in school. I know that I said before that I would not look for the guy on my own but rely on God to send the best person to me. Though I try to live by my convictions, it's not easy to walk my talk.
God, are you trying to tell me something now? Am I to stay single all my life just to fulfil the purpose you have for me?
