Bleahs
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
♥ 09:21
It's almost a month since I have been let off for my holidays. If you ask me what I have done, I would have said that I have almost done nothing. Okay, maybe not nothing, I have done some of the admin work for the camp and settled some stuff for the committe, but I really have done nothing for myself.
Seriously, I feel that I need some time for myself. It's tough coping between work, church stuff and now even giving tutiton to this isolent boy. I can't keep running from place to place just to satisfy everybody and even running around just to enjoy myself. Given the time restrictions, I feel like I am racing against time all the time. It's not even term time where I have to race against the 24 hours given to me to complete my assignments. Sigh!
Sometimes I feel that I am forced to the things that I hate to do. I know I am willing and I love to teach but it comes to a point when I feel that I am forced to do so especially when the student I am teaching is so unwilling to learn. I am okay that I am not being paid for teaching him but at least I would feel rewarded if the boy is willing to learn and possess a teachable attitude towards the stuff that I am doing with him. Why can't he realise that time is moving against him and that his exams, his MAJOR exams are approachin? Why must he make everyone so worried for him when it is his parent's job? Why give undue stress to someone who should be enjoy the prime of her life? It's not fair to Godma, nor is it fair for me to carry such a burden.
It's no point complaining here because the isolent boy would never read what I have to say here. I just pray that God will give me the patiences and the willingness to go down to teach that boy. Also that God will give me the perservering spirit to continue to do what I have to do.
