It's official! I'm bored shitless! I practically seem to have nothing to do because I am not working and I'm no longer that busy trying to do things for the youth group. AHHHHHHH!!! I really need some stuff to do before I rot so much till I drop dead and die.

Why did my parents think that having a sister would rid me of boredom??? They are so absolutely wrong because my sister is so irritating that sometimes I wish that she was never born. Well I guess she thinks the same way at times too especially when when we really can't stand each other. I guess it makes things worse when I feel that she is being pampered too much by my parents and I am not. Oh wells.

Will someone please tell me what to do with my feelings? I feel like I am going to die trying to deal with it. It's like the more I think about him the more I want to see him. It's not suppose to be this way. It was never suppose to be this way. I want to be in control of my feelings so that it won't hinder my relationship with God. Sighs.

Why do my sister's and mum's birthday seem to be more important than mine? I am serious about this. Their presents obviously cost more than mine and even where we eat on their birthdays are more expensive than the ones we go on my birthday. Oh wells. I shouldn't be comparing rite? I should just be content with everything I have. It's hard you know, but I am willing to try. -_-'''

Somehow now I can't wait for school to start so that I won't be sitting at home with almost nothing to do. I hate feeling like I'm a nut with absolutely everything at home boring the shit out of me. ARGHS! SOMEONE PLEASE GIVE ME SOME WORK TO DO SO THAT I CAN EARN SOME MONEY TOO!