Feeling Helpless
Sunday, October 16, 2005
♥ 23:33
I'm tired. Seriously TIRED! Tired of all the shit that is going around me. I need a break desperately so that I can useful again.
Why is it that people cannot see how hard the committee is working to hold this youth group together? Why can't the youths see that discipleship group meetings are important so that they can grow in the wisdom of the Lord? Why do I always have to intervene and do the things I do not like to do (ie. scolding them)? No one said that it would be easy serving God because we would have to deal with difficult people but sometimes I really question myself and ask why did I ever tell God that I would take up this leadership role in YZ? It's physically draining to be so heavily involved in the youth group because we always running around to make sure that things are running smoothly and on Saturdays most of us in the committee are in church for meetings or wad nots. I can only pray that God will give me the strength to carry on serving Him in the manner that He wants me to.
Friendships are the weirdest things on Earth because you can make friends so easily but ultimately difficult situations will be put in place to show you who your true friends really are. Many people have come into my life and out of my life at a snap of my finger. Friendships that are strong would be able to withstand any situation that they are thrown into. True friends are those that are able to rebuke each other in love and the receiving party will not fall out with the one who rebukes; those who will always be there. True Friends are also those who are truthful with each other, sharing even our darkest secrets. What more when we are brothers and sisters in-Christ? Are we going to be friends that will build each other up in the midst of the fun times and the bad times?
Friendships are weird but relationships are even weirder. When one is in a relationship, one changes so much that sometimes friends would find the drastic change unbelievable. But relationships can also bring a friendship down. Take for example that time when Shirin and I fell out over a guy that in the end broke our hearts. It's not worth it. My advice to my two really good friends, be truthful with each other. Don't assume that each other is ok and not do anything about the situation. Why fall out because of a guy? Not worth it!! Remember what Joshua Harris wrote in his book, when the time is right, God will provide. Take this time to serve God wholeheartedly and not waste anymore precious time.
Being in difficult situations just cause me to feel so helpless sometimes. It seems like I don't have the mental, emotional and physical strength to pull myself out of these situations. Much as I want to solve these problems before it gets bigger, I would say, the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. But ultimately, these problems though look too tough to be solved now, we would gain much from it. God doesn't put us in difficult positions for no apparent reasons. It may seem at times that God is unfair especially when it comes to our academic achievements but ulitmately, God has a plan for us. He did not let us go through all these in vain. It is just how we are going to handle these situations. We can choose to let them mould or break us.
Sometimes I just don't know what to say to help you out of your misery but I can only pray for all you people out there that God will embrace you and cover you with His everlasting love, that you may know that there is a God that will always be there for you. Just lay in His arms and cast your cares upon Him, for no problem is too big for God to solve it. Be it that we may be retained or we may lose our good friends, just cast it all unto Him. God loves you!
