My Private Letter with God
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
♥ 21:03
Dear God,
What are the big plans that You have installed for me? What were Your thoughts when You had me created in my mother's womb? God I am so uncertain of what You have planned for me, much less have the faith that whatever is happening now, it's all part of the beautiful picture that You have drawn out for me.
I'm tired, Lord. I'm tired that I have to play multiple roles at one time and that I have so much to do as compared to the others. God, why can't the youths in YZ be more pro-active in serving You? Why must there always be the same few people who keep running about just to make sure that the programme or even that the camp runs well? Give me the strength and the stamina to go on Lord. I feel that I am losing steam for You.
Why must there be such disgusting acts that the people You have created do? Why must they go around and kill innocent lives just to get heard, Lord? Is it all worth it? God, you have brought about so much uncertainty in the world for the past few years, what are You trying to tell us? Are we living in the end times? Are You telling us that we should be even more fervant in winning souls for You? Show me the way, Lord, that I may do Your will and not mine.
What am I to do with my life after graduating from the poly? You know of my plans to get a scholarship to study overseas, to get away from all the trouble at home. I need to have so peace and quiet, Lord. The tension at home is draining me so much that I feel that I am losing the interest of coming home. I hate to come home, Lord. When will I feel loved again? God, I want to do well, I want to become a person that follows after Your heart and do the job that I love to do in the near future.
When am I going to be heard at home? When will I be understood? When will I feel loved again? So many questions but God will You answer them? God, I hope to hear from You soon.
Love
Eudora
