Somehow I just feel exhausted. No amount of sleep can make me feel rejuvinated. I am always tired. Maybe I'm mentally, emotionally and physically tired. Maybe even spiritually tired. I'm not supposed to feel this way but somehow I don't have the mental capacity to keep telling myself not to feel like that anymore.

It's so ironic that all of us are feeling tired at the same time. Maybe it is because of our gruelling schedules with the musical rehearsals, the impending camp and at the same time trying to cope with the demands of school. School is not easy with the number of assignments that we have to deal with weekly or even daily. What is even more ironic is that I am the one telling the rest not to give in to their negative thoughts but I am the one who is giving in to them. What am I suppose to do?

School ain't that easy after all. So what if I have a slack timetable? The extra time that I have is taken up by doing all the assignments that have been set for me to complete. As I look through my notes and the things posted online daily, I can't help but feel the amounting pressure on me. Maybe I am putting too much pressure on myself. I want to excel and now is the time to really pull up my socks and put in everything I have.

I'm tired. I don't know what more I can do for church and school. The camp is approaching but not many youths have signed up. I'm disappointed but at the same time praying very hard that God will prove to the camp committee that more youths would sign up and the target would be reached. I pray that this camp will be a successful one.