I'm blogging with a heavy heart today. I feel heavily burdened that I don't know what I should do. I know what I should do - pray and commit everything to the Lord but you know when the situation is unveling before your very eyes, you just feel so helpless.

Talking to Jocelyn today really caused me to feel even more mentally and emotionally drained. It's like I feel even more helpless because it seems like she is so stuborn as to know what God really wants for her. Would running away from the situation help? Would it not be better if she reconciles this broken relationship with this sister? If God did not want the both of them to be reconciled, why did He prompt Uncle Kien Seng to come up to her to tell her to reconcile that broken relationship?

It pains to see that this friendship is suffering because of this insufferable silence from both parties. Being the only one that hears from both points of view, I feel even more burdened because I'm at a loss as to what to do. It's just so hard to commit everything to God now because when I see everything before my eyes, I can oly think back about the times when we didn't have all these problems. Why must it be that these problems derive because of their inability to control their feelings? WHY? Why can't they overlook that they are not the only ones who are affected by what's happening and they are not the only victims here? Why can't they just be truthful with each other?

I'm tired. Really tired. I can't handle it anymore. School is tough. I'm racing against time almost every other day. My pocket money is depleting really quickly due to the photography assignments. OH Lord, hear my cries for help. Your servant here needs Your strength and determination. Grant me Your love that I may love. Grant me your patience so that I can be there for both of them. Grant me forgiveness so that I may forgive.