So many things did happen when I didn't blog. On Tuesday I finally got out of the sheltering walls of my home. Didn't have to see the people I have detested since they forced me to do things that I do not like. Anyway I was pleasantly surprised by 52623 because of the nice Christmas present that he got for me. He got me this really nice necklace and a pair of earrings to go along with it. It's like my all time favourite of stars. =) So anyway Yi En also gave me a pleasant surprise because she gave me a bouquet of pink roses! My favourite too! Haha..went to watch Narnia again but hey it's a rather good movie so I don't mind watching it many many times. Peter is rather cute! Haha..

Well I had to choose between going for OTC this week or do my project which is due for presentation next week. So me being me, decided to choose my project above the OTC because I always place my studies as a priority above serving the school although it would have been a blast being an OGL along with the people that I met during my own orientation. Oh wells... but since I made my choice, no point harping on or mopping over it anymore.

So I went to school yesterday morning to do my project with Vicnan and Joo Ann. Jocelyn came down to TP to look for me coz she wanted to stay over. Anyways back to the project. The rest came late so I had time to settle some stuff before we gathered outside one of the LT's. Managed to decide how we want to present our information and we're going to meet up again tomorrow and tie up some loose ends before we practice presenting the assignment. So there we are, rushing to meet DEADlines again. The life of a typical poly student.

Kate left for New Zealand yesterday. It was the second time in my life that I have sent her off to another country and well it was sad to see her leave even though we weren't that close anymore. So I guess I wasn't really that affected. But seeing her leave set Jocelyn and I thinking how we would feel if we were to leave Singapore, leaving our friends and family and everything behind. I would cry till I faint if I have to leave all my dearest behind. Though sometimes the idea of going overseas seem real rosy, it can be quite painful to leave people and memories behind especially since we have practically grown up together.

Went to Pasir Ris Park today with Karthi, Lala, Jocelyn, BJ, Mikh and Mok. Jocelyn and I were so friggin pissed at the three guys because they knew that we were suppose to meet at 11 in the morning but they only met us at like 2pm. Like where is their sense of responsibility. It's not like we did not remind them. We even gave them morning calls. So fed up! Such behaviour will not be tolerated anymore. Haiz... anyway we had quite a bit of fun before they arrived. I even had time to do some reflection while sitting by the beach.

I asked God what does He want with me in my life especially what am I suppose to do with 52623. I don't want to start the new year on a rough start again and living my life for the wrong reasons. Not only that, I don't want to be so hung up on things that will hinder my walk with God and not only that, my studies as well. This would mean thinking what I really want to do in my service to God which would mean concentrating on just one area of service and not as many as I had this year. It's tiring and I'm sure that if I put in my 100% in just one area of serivce, God will still be happy with me.

Sometimes it would be lovely to know explicitly what I am suppose to do maybe then half the time I wouldn't feel so confused or uptight.