I think as I get older, more responsibilities would come my way. In time to come, I will worry if I will be able to find a good job, get a good pay, be able to support my parents and even will I ever find a guy that I will eventually get married to. So many things but I'm not the only one who has to go through all these, everyone has to go through it themselves.

As datelines draw closer, I just wonder how much longer I can hold on. It's frightening to know that days are passing by so quickly that in a blink of an eye, I am going to embark on the second year of study in TP. Seriously, I don't know what is going to come my way as I continue to place my studies as my second priority. Questions perpetually run through my mind about my future, whether I will be able to get a scholarship to further my studies or do I have to put this plan on hold and look for a stable job first. I am not sure. Sometimes it's easy for me to say that I will do what the Lord wants me to do, but I struggle with myself if I have obedience to listen and follow God's direction.

I am at this point where everything is not interesting to me anymore. It's like life is so boring because of the mundane routines that we have in our lives. We eat, sleep, go to school/work, hang out at the same places. How interesting can that be? People may say that it's the company that matters and not the place, but how often do we hang out with different people other than those that we are comfortable with? How many of us are able to make such a statment? Yes I know that there are people out there who can but it's only a small percentage.

The wonders of technology would most probably kill my boredom, inject some life into my lifestyle. SMSes, MSN, e-mail and blogs, these are just the things that I do when I really have nothing to do. Yet, when we have to cut down on the usage of our mobile phones due to the unhappiness of our parents, I feel so cut off from my friends lives. Why you might ask? This is because it's a habit to hear from them so ever daily when we used to sms late into the night till one of us falls asleep. My companion into the long and endless nights when I feel all upset and just need someone to shower me with the attention that I long for. To put it simply, I miss you.