I'm sitting down here just feeling like crap. Embracing feelings that I shouldn't be, thinking of someone that shouldn't exist in my memory or longing. Seriously I don't know how long more I can handle this but I don't want to repeat the same mistakes that I did 2 years ago.

Anyway, life has just been a pain since the last time I blogged. I really have no idea how things got this bad till I feel like I'm having a breakdown. Datelines to meet, church stuff to handle, so many commitments...I just feel like throwing in the towel and have a break.

Oh GOD!!! Why do I have this nagging feeling of longing within me??? I seem to be missing someone so much when I'm not suppose to. I just saw him today but not hearing from him just feels weird. Haix.