Today was a really wet day. It's been raining since I woke up this morning and hasn't stopped since. I must say that this was a really bad day because I feel terrible!

I came to realise that whenever I lead worship for the first worship of YZ, something is bound to happen to me. Last year, I came down with food poisoning and this year, I came down with a terrible gastric. Up till now, the pain is still here. IT'S TERRIBLE. Gastrics have never felt so bad before but I really have no idea why it's so painful this time. Haix...

I am frustrated. Frustrations from serving God. This shouldn't be the case but when it happens, I can only pray that God will take this frustration away from me. I never like it when people doubt my decisions especially if I had already gone through the adults and know where I am coming from. It may seem selfish of me to keep using the word 'I' but seriously as a committee when one is upset, the others must always ponder why. When one is a committee, I believe that they should work together and mostly importantly, if there is a decision to be made with regards to the entire youth group, they should speak to us and see what we have to say. I don't know what is the rationale for them to do this but as a leader in the youth group, I feel obligated to partcipate. I really have no idea what God wants me to do with regards to the training project but I guess whatever it is, I have to ask myself what God really wants.

Haix. I don't know. I am at this point where the frustration is overwhelming that I had a breakdown last night. This afternoon it happened as well and I don't know how long more can I tahan. Oh wells.