The word lonely is not new to me. I know that it is not right for me to feel lonely because there is a God that is always there with me. Sometimes I can't help it but feel this way though. Even though there may be people who are always around me, the feeling of loneliness creeps silently into my life. This is quite bad right?

I can't help but think of this certain person but it's definitely not 52623. This is quite worrying thinking that I am not very close to this person. Maybe I am just so used to having him being around me so much that now when he is not around, I feel weird. OH NO!! This can't be happening! I really mean this cannot happen! NO NO NO!!!! Haix....ok I really shan't think so much anymore. No MORE!!!!!! Be it 52623 or even this person. NO MORE!!!!! No more mistakes in my life from this year. I don't want to be dumb and get myself all muddled up all the time anymore.

I just realise how time is zooming past me. It seems like the dateline for all the assignments are coming up real early and gosh! There is still so much to do! I really don't know how we are all going to cope but I guess we will. I want to do well this semester and get a better GPA so that at least I can account to my parents that inspite of all the activities that I was busy with, I am still doing ok in school

Sometimes I can't fanthom why some people have all the luck in the world to find someone that loves them so much. It feels like with all that I have learnt from bible study, I am finding it very difficult to apply these principles. Haix. I don't know what I want anymore. My mind is in a whirl.