and so today my mood = bad. My sister is pissing the hell out of me by showing me attitude. I bet she can't wait for me to go to Aust so that she can hog the computer for three entire weeks without anyone breathing down her neck to tell her to get away from there. ARGHS.

I think my mood has just caused me to not want to go to church tomorrow even though I have a meeting to attend, give and receive bible study. I just need a break. A break from church, a break from having to deal with difficult people who can't seem to get off my back and continually irritate the hell out of me. I just don't want to deal with difficult issues as though i do not have enough problems of my own. WHY THE HELL DO PEOPLE NOT WANT TO SERVE? I can't possibly be waiting hand and foot on the youths much longer. I have a life to lead as well. It's not that glamorous to serve in this committee with all the problems resting on my shoulders. Parents complains, difficult youths, burnt out DGLs, DGLs who don't seem to be making an effort etc. Like HELLO! I'm only 18 here you know?!

ARGHS. It's not glamorous either to be a sister to an irritating brat in the house. I think all she even thinks of doing is to piss me off real bad. Sometimes I just feel like telling her to FO and wish that she was never born.

I can't wait to go to Australia to have some time on my own and away from everyone. I need time on my own. LIKE SERIOUSLY. If not, I think i will just go bonkers. I'm up to my ears with church stuff and all I really want now, is a break.