It's been a trumatic period since I have returned from Perth. First I don't know what has been happening amongst my friends but all I know now is that I am feeling sad because of what I am seeing. I am not a liberty to say more but I can only pray that things will get better.

Went for Life Concert at SAJC yesterday. It was really good to see that Shirin has ran back to the loving hands of God. Was praying so much for her to feel His love again.

[shir] I don't know what is happening in your life now. I only know that you were filled with so much joy when you went back to the Lord. With Him all things are possible, even if it means conquering through it all. I know that it's tough seeing him every single day but what is love when he doesn't love you anymore? There's a much greater love for you out there! I pray too that you don't have to wear that mask anymore and I know the long road ahead of you. Be strong. All of us are praying for you.

Well, all I can only say as I reflect upon my walk with God is that it has been a long and winding road, with many ups and downs. There are many times that I feel that I have failed God in terms of my commitment,my studies, my family and friends and sometimes my desires. It's not known to my friends how much I truly struggle with my walk with God. I am not as pius as I seem to be. It's my prayer to continue walking this journey with God and that I can trust Him with all my heart especially in terms of my future.

Sometimes I find it so hard to trust God that He will provide in times of need. Through the past couple of years and having been through so many ups and downs, so many trial especially in my life, it seems like God has always been there just that I find it so hard to buck in His presence. Even till today, I struggle like crazy but maybe I just don't tell the rest.

I struggle with relationships too. I found it so hard to pick myself up from my last ordeal only to find myself falling back in again. I don't know what is wrong with me!! I don't know how much longer I can take it but I can only pray for the feelings to fade. It's too hard for me to bear. It's too confusing for my little mind. If only things weren't that hard.