I've been up for almost 48 hours with a little sleep here and there to make sure that I can still function during my classes. I think today is the ultimate. My eyes are puffy, I can't really see or concentrate and I am still rushing out the literature review for BMR.

I never felt this lousy about school work in my life. Like how many times have all of you heard me stay up for so many nights in a row or even going to be library so often? Then only to know the night before you are suppose to hand in the assignment that you are on the wrong track and you have to re-do it? It doesn't help when you have maxed out your library card and your body is telling you to rest. So there you have it, my life in a nutshell for the past week.

On top of feeling like shit yesterday because of school work, I felt extremely sad when I saw how nice this person was to my friend. I mean the person was there to lend that emotional support, taking care of her, massaging her when she was stressed and tired. I longed for it too. It felt terrible. All I could do to stop feeling the way I did was to go into the bookshelves and hide. I cannot take it anymore. Feelings like these are eating me up. School is eating me up. I am a broken girl.