I thought that I have stayed long enough away from my blog since wednesday. I don't know how to put in words how I exactly feel but it's been a bad week. It still is.

Kept myself busy so that I can forget all feelings and just focus on what needs to be done. I can't help but question God and his existence. I realised that I was leading worship this Sunday and it's so hard to prepare for it because I have no idea in which direction I can go.

No words can also describe how bad things have been since last week. Everything seems to be either failing for me or well just not going my way. Aiya I dunno la. This is terrible. How I wish things were back to the way it used to be when I didn't have so many things to worry about. Like when I was a baby. I don't care for freedom I just want my life back.