Mixed emotions within me. Feelings that are hard to describe. Uncertainty, lost and unloved. I have no idea what's happening within me but I feel like I am going to be an emotional wreck. Oh God please help me.

I wanted to give up on the poly forum even though I have been through so much already. So much time and effort and I feel like I have not enough to do things that I want. Not enough rest coupled with stress is terrible. I have been feeling sick for so long already that I am not even sure what is happening to my own body. But I am clinging on to the poly forum. A few more weeks to go before it's all over.

For those who have been trying to get me online for the past few days, sorry that you haven't been able to do so because I have been sleeping at the weirdest hours to get my soccer fix. Man, they need to bring the world cup to asian timezone again so that the hours in which the matches are played are godly. Don't have to sleep at like 10 to wake at 2.30 to go back to sleep after the match again. It's crazy especially if you have long days in school.