Okae. I finally dragged myself to see the doctor today. The doctor as usual said that it was due to gastrics that I have been feeling the terrible pain. Well it can be due to my diet and therefore, no chilli for now and it may be caused by stress too. But yes, I finally went to see the doctor and will be taking my medicine regularly.

Sometimes when things happen and feelings of jealousy come about, I can't help but wonder why am I feeling this way. It's a terrible feeling and I hate it.

School is a bummer and seriously, I am beginning not to like it. Being in such close proximity to some people and not being truthful to myself and them is killing me on top of the pressures from school. If only life is back to being so simple like back when I was in primary school where all I was concerned about was school and nothing but school. No such things as boys to worry about.

You know I spend time planning what I want in life. At what age do I want to get married or how old do I want to start establishing my family and of course what my future will be like in the media industry. However, I think my planning is nothing but just dreams that are being built in the air. It's so impossible to see my future because it seems like things are not going according to what I had mapped out. Maybe I think too much. Maybe it's too early to tell if I will get married by the age that I had planned. I don't know but maybe planning doesn't help one lead their lives.