The up and down roller coaster of life can take a toll on anyone when it becomes too much to bear. People say that I am perpetually down or that I think too much but I can't help but realise that there are times that I was happy too just that well, maybe I just don'w harp on them.

Sometimes for someone who has been through a lot in the past two years of her life just wish that God will give her a break. I wish that God will stop breaking and moulding me just as I am trying to fill my shoes in the situation that He has put me in. I hate it when God bring people into my life then they walk out again.

My only weakness is that I love someone way before the feeling is being recirocated. However, this doesn't happen much because it's not that easy to love someone. On and off as I watch TV programs, all the time they talk about love and I learn something from there. I see myself in the shows at time. Things like if you love someone, you don't have to be with the person as long as the person you love is happy etc. But can that really be aplied in reality? Can I really love a person in which I know will never be with me or won't love me back as how I love him?

I was never part of the equation was I?