I am worried about you. I'm sorry that you feel like you are the butt of jokes, that you are taken for granted but I just wanted to say that you are my friend and always will be my friend. Sometimes, life can be such a bitch when people say things that are really unpleasant to you. But I really want you to know that you have friends around you, who are willing to share your woes, your joys, your pain, your troubles. Even if you feel like the whole world is coming down on you, God is there. He is your friend and always will be. That's the same way with me.

Sometimes, all of us gotta learn how when to take people's words to heart and when not to. Sometimes we need to take life easy yet there are times to be serious as well. There are many more sometimes and yets in life but most importantly, never give in to the thought of giving up in this world because things will never get easier this way. Life is all about making it the way we want it to be, of course with God's direction. The way we lead our lives is the road to making the world a better place. Seek solace in God. Seek solace in the friends that are willing to listen. This is what makes life so much easier to deal with.

I can understand how people in such situations feel. I was once in that position yet escaping was never a solution. It only made me feel worse. Knowing those around you, those who love you and are there for you are so much better in dealing with it. Escapism is NEVER an option. I hope you seriously go find solace in God. If it means going for a short break to find God in a place without distraction, go ahead. That is the most important. Come back refreshed and ready to face this world again. Remember, life as we grow older will only get tougher and not easier. Knowing how to deal with it is a much better way. Pray if you need to, cry if you need to, but remember to turn back to the bible for the words of encouragement that can only lift your spirits up.