Nothing can console me at this point in time. Maybe no one would understand how important my grades are to me especially with my hopes and dreams. Maybe now all I want to do is to give up and not bother about what God has installed for me already. I have had enough of God's games. Why? Why can't I get the results I worked hard for? Why are my grades so medicore?

God you dashed my hopes and dreams in just one day. Are you satisfied? Are you happy that for the past three semesters you made a fool out of me? Why? Just tell me why?! Life is full of shit as it is already and I don't need You to make it any worse for me.

No one understands. No one understands the thoughts that are running through my mind right now. I feel like everything has come to a stop for me. I have no more will power to press on. I have had enough of you making fun of me. I have had enough of life pulling fast ones on me.

I'm not rich and all I can dream of is getting that scholarship to move on to pursue my dreams. Now, it's all gone. Are you happy now? Taking things away from me? You want me to trust and have faith in you? Tell me how to do so because when I did, all I felt was more disappointment than before. You were the only one whom I thought would understand but God, you don't. I'm sorry for that fact.