Survived a day at work staring at the computer for what seem the longsest time trying to see if the numbers match. I guess it's just all in a day's work.

Well, I spent the time doing a lot of thinking while on my way home from work. Thinking about this complex thing of human relationships especially with the opposite sex. No it's not that I'm thinking of getting attached day in and day out but more of thinking of the consequences of getting in a relationship.

Many times, we just focus on the happiness of relationships and hide the pain that comes along with it. Yet, there are times where we don't even know why we get ourselves into this complex relationship. Then, comes the times when we throw in the towel and at the end of the day, not only get hurt but hurt others as well. It's sad just to think about it.

Then there are the decisions we make when we are 'in love'. Sometimes you wonder whether the decisions we make is because we want to find acceptance in the other party or is it because we really want to be on the same level as the other person so as to know the person better? Then, I would say that when we are 'in love' we behave like we are those teenagers again. You know, rash and impulsive, acting on the emotions that we feel.

No it's not that I am speaking about particular people but more of reflecting on myself and my perspective on relationships. We are all fragile people who hate to be lonely, who especially hate to be hurt but yet again and again, we all feel this way. We know what we are looking for in another person but yet don't possess the great amount of love to love someone long enough not to hurt them. And when differences become too great to bear, we often take the easy way out even though it may be an amicable break. Yet, we all still believe in this thing called love.

Even me, I still wish for the day to have that nice slow dance with someone to take things slow and easy, savouring every moment of being in love. To paint that rosy picture without any blemishes. I know that my time will come when God decides to let it come.

But my encouragement to those who are going through that difficult time of mending that broken heart or making that decision of letting go of that love you have for another person, we never know why the other party behaves the way they do but yet if we really love the person, we would want the best. When we want the best, sometimes it's best to let go. Yet don't give up on yourself because you hurt those who are around you. Don't mask your pain because it will only make you feel worse. That facade won't make you feel better. Share the pain with someone you trust because ultimately, it is equal to halving the burden. =)