My goal in this period of time is to get a full scholarship to pursue journalism in either a local univeristy or one overseas. Of course, it will be great to head out of Singapore to study because I feel stifled here. I feel like I will never realise my fullest potential with the competition I am faced with. I feel like all the opportunities will go to others but not me.

My goal in 6 years time is actually to get hitched to someone who loves me. No, he does not have to be very handsome. It's who he really is that matters to me. It's gotta be someone who puts God above me, who loves me for me, who loves my parents, loves kids. He doesn't have to be rich but must earn enough to save for the future. He will be one that is family oriented who will be responsible. During this time, I am also making a name for myself in the journalism industry. Writing for a top fahion magazine - doing what I love most to do.

In 10 years I would probably have 2 children, maybe 3. I want 4 kids though. Then we will be living in a house where it's comfortable to have sufficient place for them to have their own space but still learn how to share. The house that we live in, would be one that is filled with love and God being the head of the household. As for the names of the children, I don't know yet but it will be something that we will agree upon. I will still be a writer and maybe venture into a different scope in the magazine world. Maybe I will even publish books too.

See, these are the dreams that I have for me. As to whether I can realise thse dreams will be another issue. Sometimes, what I want is the direct opposite of what happens. But one thing still remains, that I will still serve the Lord my God with all my heart, soul, mind and strength. In order to realise my dream, I can only pray that God will send me the answer to my prayers about who He wants me to be with and tell my heart to stop pining for what may not be already mine.

I need God to answer my prayers, to tell me to continue to have faith that I will rejoice in times when things happen the opposite of what I want them to be. To have the faith to obey God and not rebel against Him. I pray that God answers the prayers uttered silently, giving me direction to treat them equal and just as friends.

I wish that I was a young girl all over again. Then I wouldn't know what is this thing called love and the pain that it brings. Suffering it too many times hasn't caused me to be numb, it has only go me to feel worse. Can someone tell me the real meaning of love?

Is it like what people say, that people who love each other will bind their hearts, that their love will melt all obstacles that come along their way, will give others the hope of true and eternal love? I need to know - when will it be the time when I give others the hope of true and eternal love.