5 movies in two weeks is definitely a new record for me. This is definitely excluding the movies I'm watching for film theory assignments. I think I'm going to die from excessive movie watching. Anyway it's another day and two hours before the year comes to an end and us ushering the new year. So the crunch line is, how many of us are tying up our loose ends?

I know loose ends are difficult to tie when situations are tense and worst still when there are so many things that are on the thin line that should anything happen, we say bye bye to the things or people that mean a lot to us. Sighs. I don't want this year to just go by like that and me not being able to do the things I need to do.

I wish that as this year draws to an end, I will be finally allowed to stay out late! I mean I know where my parents are coming from when they don't allow me to stay out late but then again, I really want to because I want to hang out with my friends - attend my first party, attend some countdown party that is outside church etc. I wonder when the time will come when I will be allowed to stay out late.

This holiday season is one when I have seen that I am not the only one suffering from this loneliness. The movie has taught me that there are alot of people out there who experience the same loneliness and hurt that I suffer from too. I'm not alone. Yet Lord I pray that You will help me do something about it. I don't want to feel it anymore. Lord, answer this prayer of mine that I will be able to get over all that I have been feeling so that I can lead a happy life again. Feel the void that has plagued me for the longest time and take away any pain I've been feeling. Let me be loved by someone again.