In me there is this anger. This anger that is slowly building up because I always feel that people especially my friends are taking advantage of me. I somehow never feel appreciated when people approach me for help even though I was willing to help them in the first place. Is it so difficult for people to say a simple thank you? Or why is that I only hear from people whenever they need my help but I don't hear from them when they don't need me? Sometimes it gets frustrating and there is no way in telling the person how I really feel. I am one such person that put other's first and therefore, find it difficult to tell them the anger that is building inside.

On hindsight, today marked the last day of term. I finished my CCC test with no hopes of passing it with flying colours. Maybe it's God's way of punishing me for not doing enough in studying, leaving it to the last minute. I thank God that at least it's the holidays so I can take my time to do some assignments. Just pray for good time management though. I think that there is so much to do during this hols that all I want to do is to have a proper break. Oh wells.

Shopping at Ikea was fruitful. Managed to get christmas presents for people that mean a lot to me. I hope they love the gifts even though they may be small.

I pray that this Christmas would be a special one where true feelings are revealed. Where people around me tell each other how they truly feel and no one lives behind a facade anymore. Give us the courage to make this christmas a special one. I pray that God you work in the hearts of those coming for the musical. May the dance be a honourable sacrifice to u.