It's now 3.17pm on 31 December 2006. I have finally finished tying my loose ends for the year and the feeling that is felt within me is somewhat bittersweet. Should I be relieved that I finally did what I had set out to achieve by the year's end? Should I be sad because of the outcomes of tying up my loose ends? I seriously don't know. Maybe it's good that I no longer have to worry and most importantly know that the air between people have been cleared.

I don't look forward to the new year ahead. Though the big challenge is there when you know that the year ahead would be filled with many uncertainties especially with my internship placement, what I'm going to major in by the year's end. Time zooms past me without a doubt, often leaving me with little time to stop and know that God is here. I don't stop to smell the flowers nor do I stop to gaze and look at the stars just like how I used to.

Yet, on this day I thank God for the things that He has done for me. I thank God that he has brought me new friends, friends that I can rely on. I thank God for healing my pain when I was in despair. I thank God for giving me the opportunity to serve Him in the musical when I knew that what kept me going through that time was my love for performing. I thank God even for the post performance syndrome. I thank God for giving me the courage to tie my loose ends and even the strength to be me.

God, I don't know what You have planned ahead for me but You hear my silent prayers and I believe that You will answer them in your perfect timing. Yet God, I pray that you give me courage and strength to go on from day to day especially to face the many uncertainties of the day. Let me be the person whom You want me to be.