Doubt, fear and uncertainty fills my heart. I'm not sure how long more I can hold out living the way I am, juggling so many things at one time, asking myself questions that I have difficulty giving myself the answers.

When I stepped into 1 January 2007, I looked forward to year that was much better than the last. I looked forward to a year where I could throw everything behind me and start on a clean slate. A year where I would be able to learn more than I have had in the past few years. Maybe it's been God's way of training me.

I don't know anymore. It's only the beginning of the year and I already feel worn out. I don't know how long more of this I can handle.