I am so unsure of myself. I feel like I've gone down again. My mind just keeps running wild, praying that nothing bad will happen to the people around me. It doesn't help that I read Jodi Pocult's The Pact where it speaks of this girl who commited sucide because she couldn't live with the dark secret she had.

I'm afraid that the people around me will take this route because they cannot handle the stresses of life or the are just tired of living. It's a scary thought and I'm scared. I don't want to have to go through the trauma of it all.

I've finally inked the contract that would bind me to my internship company. I guess it's a bittersweet kinda thing. I felt both a sense of relief and uncertainty. I really wonder what's installed for me in the next six months.

Sigh. I wish all of you are well.