The thing about humans is when we are busy, we complain and when we have nothing much to do, we complain as well. Now that things have slowed down a great deal, suddenly I have so much time on my hands that when I feel that I have nothing to do, my mind just runs wild. Just the whole of today was spent just thinking of things that probably I shouldn't have. Purely letting my emotions run wild in this house has caused me to really settle and think.

What is it that I really want in my life? What is it that I really look for? Somehow the forgotten thoughts about loneliness and sadness have slowly made their way back into my life and I think about the vast ocean out there. Casting a net or simply a rod? Waiting silently for God to send me the one or to take a proactive attitude?

It's normal to be single. It's normal to be like me.