I just got home from church and I wonder how strong I was during service because I knew I was about to break down and cry while hearing the message brought to us by God through Dr. David Howard.

I wonder if I would ever be able to be so humble to wash the feet of those who come into my house and be able to love those whom have sinned against me. To love them with the love that God has for them is truly difficult though not impossible. Will I ever be able to lay down my life for the sake of those who are around me? I don't possess the courage that the people have. In fact, I think I am a coward. A coward who cannot face up honestly to what I'm feeling because I want to take the easy way out.

This morning was a time which I kinda dread because I knew I was heading to the beach to film something for school. The beach is a place that I don't really want to go to at the moment even though it can be the most beautiful place to be at. I thought I was going to cry when I was there but I didn't.

With the blue sea and the clear sky, I just wished that I was there not because of filming but there to enjoy myself, to enjoy the company.