If there's anything that I can pray for now is to be able to sleep and to wake up feeling good and not like feeling my insides are going to come out any minute. Is this intuition ever going to stop? I hate it when I feel something but nothing happens because I will keep feeling the weird thing all day long or even for days. My left eye is twitching even harder than before and I wish that it would stop.


I wish I can live my life as though nothing has happened. To love like I've never been hurt before. I kick myself in the ass wondering why I still like to watch my romance drama especially My Lovely Samsoon even though I've watched it so many times. What's worse, I wish that I had the romance they are having. JUST SHOOT ME. I want to be happy, to be free.

I pray for an iron heart. A heart that is hard yet mallable so that I won't be that emotional or hurt. I wish that I can't feel anything. I wish that my intuition is wrong half of the time.