My body screams for a break but I keep pushing my body. I have no idea why. I sleep late, I work hard at work and at the gym, think I killed my feet with my heels. Yet, I can't sleep!! I'm tired really tired. Like last night, I knew I was tired and I was dozing off. I fell asleep and before I knew it, I was up again. It continued for the past 5 hours and really, all I wish I can do now is sleep.

I really need to pamper myself, pronto!Things at work aren't that bad really. I have survived 2 weeks at my job and I think I will truly enjoy myself at posting. You would think that engaging in retail therapy would help when one is in need of pampering and most probably to release stress. BUT it made me feel worse yesterday. No I didn't buy anything. I just didn't have any mood to shop. It's weird but yea, it happened.

I seriously don't feel like doing anything and just stay at home and rest. Like I said before, it is ironic that when we are busy we long for a break but when we are too free, we complain about how free we are. In all honesty in my mind there's only one thing. Go back to Perth for my well-deserved holiday. I really really want that break to be away from everything. To start afresh when I return. To know that I have no more loose ends to tie up. No more relations to cut off.

I don't want to just break down and cry in my office like how I've been feeling for the past few days. It's embarassing and what's worse, I don't want my colleagues to think that I am an emotional wreck. It's not a good thing and this is my internship that I cannot screw up. Oh wells.

If there's anyone who wants to bring me shopping just to accompany me or just to pick up the tab, let me know. =)