There was a time where I just dreamed about strolling along the beach with you, enjoying your company and just having the time of our lives. I dreamed about us busking in the love that we share with the stars looking down at us with envy. All these but were just a dream. Will they ever come true? I'm really not sure.

I wish that you would have the guts to tell me how you feel rather than giving me all the mix signals. Yet, I don't want to push you into telling me how you feel because i might end up pushing our friendship away. It's a tough choice but I'd rather be friends than ruin everything for us both.

Every single day I pray that God will show me His way. I mean everything is so gray at this moment. Whether or not I will go to the university to whether or not I will be able to find a job that I love. These are the things that are bothering me. I mean, I like to plan ahead yet when everything seems so bleak, I have no idea where to go and who to turn to. Yes, definitely I should be turning to God but really, I wish I had some idea where I would be heading to.

Now, I pray that it was already September 28. I need to go back to school soon to retain some sanity. The lack of work in the office is definitely killing my brain cells. I need work. I need to be busy.