Finally I understand how my friends feel whenever I have no time for them. The feeling actually sux so bad that all I could do was just cry at my desk silently. I just long for the time that I can be like a normal teenager without all the added responsibilities. There are times that I just wish I can enjoy my weekends just like everyone else and not feel so busy on both Saturdays and Sundays. It's really tiring.

It has come to a point where I feel that Friday nights have become the only weekend that I can truly enjoy of course that would change when SIP ends. Yet how true can it be that I only have one day of my weekend to try to meet up with people and chill?

Honestly, I've grown weary. I'm sick and tired of having to deal with this from time to time. I know that there are people who are worst off than me but you know when you're just feeling so shitty, nothing matters anymore.

I'm sorry to all of you who have to go through the pain of me rejecting you all the time because I simply don't have time for you. I will try my best to make things better.