I'm never sure of what I can make out of what is happening in my life at this present moment. It's ironic that I was once sure of what I could say about how I was feeling and how everything that is happening around me was affecting me but now, everything seems to be a blur.

As time passes and I wonder more about stuff, I keep asking myself over and over again what do I exactly want in life. Planning the next step in life is not easy because I am really filled with uncertainty. Much as I want to go to university and do social science, it may not be in God's plan for me. Honestly, I very much would want to say that into God's hands I commit everything to Him, choosing to submit to every thing that He has planned for me. It's difficult because it's in our human nature to wants what the world wants as well.

That aside, the peer pressure around me is mounting. I don't know how to pen it down in words but yes, I do feel a certain amount of pressure with regards to some issues. Issues which should not be important at this point in time.

Pressure about me moving on to another place is also mounting. There are things that are holding me back and if it weren't for the issues that are pressing me to move, I wouldn't want to. It's quite depressing to actually think about it now because I don't know but I feel like I will be giving up a lot when I move and leaving my comfort zone is something that requires a big step of faith.

This has been the one thing that really bogs me. If anything, I just wish life wasn't this hard.