My life is nothing but bullocks at the moment. I cannot say what I feel nor do what I wish to do. How on earth am I suppose to continue living like that? I want to tell you every single thing. Why is it that you cannot sense that I have something to say? Are you running away like I think I am? I can't even go on a simple holiday.

Please, all I am begging is that all of you don't look to me anymore. Don't look to me to make your decisions. I cannot handle it anymore. I feel so tired struggling with so much. My words no longer can come out of my mouth, they just reside in my mind and heart.