The superficiality of the world has just seeped into all the friendships that I thought was once important to all of us. The trust, the sense of belonging and the love we all had for each other has vanished into thin air and i don't know what to make of it anymore.

For the first time after 3 years, I really feel so lousy about myself that all I could think of was to run away and say goodbye eternally to all of you. To those who have been telling me that I can pull through these tough times, I thank you for your faith in me. However, I am too tired to try anymore.

For those whom I thought were my closest pals, I don't know what to make up of how I am feeling about things. I just wonder are we still the people we used to be? Are we the friends that were once so close to each other that I know I can run to you whenever I am in trouble? Are we still real to each other or hiding things from each other?

To you, each day I long to talk to you on msn. Each day I hope for the time for us to actually meet up and hang out again. I know that you have someone else in mind but each time, I long to tell you how I really feel. The agony of living behind a mask is hard but I guess, if you would be happier this way and I won't lose you as a friend, I don't mind donning this mask as long as it takes.

Give me the strength, the hope and miracle in life to carry on.