When you feel like the world is crashing down on your shoulders, when you feel like you have no more steam to deal with all the shit, somehow you find the inner strength to carry on living. I must say that the past week have been difficult to deal with but I'm surviving.

Much as my heart and my head is telling me the same thing to come clean with how I am feeling I can't help but keep thinking of the party on the receiving end and how I would be adding pressure. Honestly, I don't want that to happen but the silence is killing me. I need to move on.

I need to pray that I will get better.

School is starting next week and I haven't gotten my timetable which is so annoying. I want it now so that I can plan my life for the next few months. I don't care that it's my last semester but I have so many things to think about now. My next step, getting things done before I graduate and just piecing everything together. Honestly, stop just stop asking me to cast aside my plans. I have my own life. Let me deal with it.