All I wish for is that all of you be truthful to me. I don't give a qualm about you dating because ultimately, we are growing up and this is all part of it. But it hurts me to know that you are deliberately hiding it from me and as someone whom you used to call as bestie/good friend, I think you are betraying this trust that we have. The more I think about it, the more disappointed and upset I become. Honestly, the worst reaction you can get from me is, "Have you prayed about it?" If you have and you think that you are doing the right thing, then by all means.

But because of the way you are acting all so seedy about it, it makes me wonder even more if you are doing the right thing. I am in no position to judge since you choose not to tell me anything. Let me tell you, I am not the only one hurting here. There are others who are hurt by your actions. We would want to hear it straight from you and not be one of those who just hears it from somewhere else. If this is your definition of how a friend should behave, then I really got nothing more to say.

The feeling is overwhelming whenever I am tired or whenever I have the time alone to think about what is happening in my life. I hate the superficiality of the world and how it has crept into the relationships that mean so much to me. Even people whom I used to think that are the ones that the friendships we have will never fade but instead go stronger through the years are disappointing me. It feels like these seven years of friendship mean nothing to the both of you. It's sad.

Yet, I don't know how to tell you all these face to face because I honestly think that I will be throwing a fit because I am jealous. I don't care if you're dating or not, just don't hurt the people around you. Friends are feeling neglected, it's affecting their lives not just yours. If you've made the promise that there will no longer be secrets among us, then keep to it.

It's even worse that we are all serving together. I actually think that because of all these problems and how superficial we have all become, we cannot function as the Core anymore and very soon, YZ will not become a priority in our lives. People will just come for the sake of coming. How on earth are we to lead when in the first place, we are not doing the things that we are telling the rest to do? How can we live a life that is an example for the younger ones to look up to us to? We said we want to lead by action and not mere words alone, are we doing that?

Think about it. We need to sort things out.