I have my moments too
Sunday, August 14, 2005
♥ 20:30
I have my moments too when I feel like throwing in the towel and giving everything up, church, school and relatioships. Sometimes when life is so tough, one just wonders, what are all these things that I have to do got to do with my life.
As I go to church week in week out and realise the number of things that I would have to do for the Discipleship committee to help in the growth of our younger ones, I really wonder: "What is God using me to do for this ministry? Why are things so tough at this precise moment?" DGs are like the livewire for the youth group and it's where the youths really experience God, fellowship with their fellow brothers and sisters in-Christ. But why are there so many problems? I know that it's human nature but it is tough as it is to get everything running smoothly and I certainly do not need any additional problems.
Exams are coming up in school. Fianlly made up my mind about quitting the band and now I'm completely immersing myself in completing all the projects that I have on hand. CCA has become a thing of the past in my life and now all I want to do is get good grades and hope that I can still get that scholarship that I'm aiming for. Though it was a tough decision to make since I love music so much, I knew that I had done the right because I want to concentrate fully in serving God and studying.
As the days pass, my feelings grow but I too know the answer I would get if I took the chance.. I don't want to risk getting hurt again but the feelings at times are so unbearable that maybe the truth will bring me back to reality.It hurts to know the truth but I guess we all need to face up to it.
