It's one in the morning and I'm still up. I should be asleep by now but there seems to be so much on my mind that I think it would be impossible for me to sleep in peace tonight. At least for now, I am rest assured that the campsite has been paid for and the campsite has been confirmed. But there are still so many things out there for me to do, I have no idea where to start.

Went for breakfast with Vicnan this morning and got to know more about him. It seemed like we youths go through this period of time when we hardly speak to our parents at all. I admire Vicnan for his courage to pursue what he wants. That even with parental objections about the path he chose for his education, he still went ahead and is even financing for his own education. Maybe that's why he is working so hard too. I doubt I would have the courage like him to pursue my dreams even if it goes against my parent's wishes. After all, it was instilled in me that I should honour my parent's decisions and that they know what is best for me.

It's not easy if we want to pursue our dreams. It takes perserverence, patience and even faith. We may know what we want to do but ultimately the process in which we take to finally realise that dreamn would be one that is tough. Many people have lofty dreams but because they are not able to survive through the tough periods, many of them give these dreams up. It's a pity but life is tough.

Randy mentioned that I lost this glow that I used to have. A glow where a Christians would possess. I'm weary. I no longer have the energy to go about doing all these ministry work. Maybe it's because I lack the encouragements? Maybe it's because I don't see results? I'm not sure. All I can do now is pray and ask God for a revival in my life.

The camp is approaching but the attendance is so low that it seems discouraging. May God show me His marvellous work that I may keep the faith again.