I AM SO IRRITATED!!! I am in the library trying to start doing some readings for my Basic Media Research individual assignment and SOME FRESHIES sitting across me are making a hell lot of noise. So much for the library being quiet enough for doing readings and start writing academic papers. ARGHS!

Okay so maybe there are other factors that are clogging my mind as well so much that nothing that I am doing at this point in time is constructive. I finally met HIM in the canteen during my lunch break today and OMG. I never felt this way before. I never thought that meeting him will evoked so much in me as though I hadn't gotten over him yet. I really feel like shit. I SO HATE MYSELF!

Shirin and I have been talking about giving people chances. It's just so hard to give a guy this chance to like me when I know that I won't be able to love him. I mean it wouldn't be fair to the guy. Sigh. So much for being lonely and wanting to get out of it. I suppose life is worth more than getting into relationships, to love and be loved, to rush assignments, to deal with freshies who are plain noisy in the library or even writing academic papers. There's much more to life for me to deal with.

I hate it when I have to spend my long breaks alone. It seems like even though I want to get started with my work and assignments, I can never get to it. Sighs. Another hour to go before my next class. RAH!!!