OMG. I JUST TYPED SOMETHING ON MY BLOGGER AND THE ENTIRE POST DISAPPEARED! ARGHS. I think it went something like today it's Friday the 13. Not like I should be bothered by this apparent jinxed day but apparently it's happening.

A striking question came about as I was talking to a friend just now. What on earth am I here for? Truthfully, I don't think we know the answer to that question except for God. God holds the keys to all these locks that we cannot unlock. I guess when the day comes for Him to answer all these questions, I will know the answer. In all honesty I do have a lot of unanswered questions. Questions that bother me from time to time. I guess I need to be patient and wait for the answers.

I'm in that shit emo mood again. I hate it that I'm emo. I hate it when emotions get the better of me. ARGHS. I just want to stop being me. Stop being so arghs. I don't know. I am starting to hate myself for it. I am afraid I will do something stupid spending too much time at home or being alone at home. SIGHS.

I wish I was the one going to China for my internship. I think time away from Singapore would do me some good. YIP! I DON"T WANT YOU TO GO TO CHINA!!!!!!!!! Seriously, I think I will miss this dear girl so much when she's there for 6 months. She's not even gone and I am missing her already. If not for her and my group of friends in poly who kept me so real and kept me in check, I would have gone crazy in this course.

I've got spray paint on my manicured nails. ARGHS. I'm in a shitty emo mood. SIGHS. Anyway, I was on my way to church today to do some stuff and I was listening to Take That. I totally agree with this song...

Just have a little patience

I'm still hurting from a love I lost,
I'm feeling your frustration.
Any minute all the pain will stop.
Just hold me close inside your arms tonight,
don't be too hard on my emotions

Cause I need time.
My heart has no feeling.
So while I'm still healing,
Just try and have a little patience.

I really wanna start over again,
I know you wanna be my salvation.
The one that I can always depend.

I'll try to be strong. Believe me,
I'm trying to move on,
It's complicated but understand me.

Cause I need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing,
Just try and have a little patience,

Yeah, have a little patience, Yeah

Cause these scars run so deep,
It's been hard,
But I have to believe in me.

Have a little patience,
Have a little patience,

Woah, Cause I, I just need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing,
just try, and have a little patience,

Have a little patience,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing
just try and have a little... Patience