This week has been a week where adjustments had to be made. Going back to work after having a mini-break of some sort required me tuning my body back to the long hours in the office. I suppose it wasn't all that bad until I realized that they were upset that I had taken 3 days MC even though I was really unwell. It made me feel even more crap about going back to the office. I have another 12 weeks to rough it out there. I gotta learn to love my job. Even if it requires me to lead that double life, I just got to stick it out.

Life is full of unkowns and changes. We constantly need to morph ourselves into the culture, situation that we are in. Much as we all detest change, it is needed. Yet sometimes, we feel so beaten and worn. But through this time, you kinda know who are the ones who will stick by you through thick and thin. You kinda know who really cares. It opens your eyes to see how much we all mean to each other.

People change, lives change, decisions we make affects change. When we all move on in our lives, move away, change schools whatever, we somehow start to lose some things around us. No matter how hard we try to keep close to each other, we somehow push each other away too.

To those whom I don't usually meet, I'm sorry I've not been such a good friend. To those whom have moved to somewhere in the world and we hardly actually talk, I wish we would talk more.

I need something in my life. I need change of some sort. I don't want people to keep holding me back. I don't want it anymore. I'm tired. I just want change.